Friday, October 14, 2011
Finding my way
I have been managing to plod along but today I am tired. I think everything is catching up with me and I am glad it is Friday and I have a couple of days to decompress.
One of the coping skills I developed as I learned to live with Mom's Alzheimers was to compartmentalize certain problems. I just couldn't deal with all the different things in the beginning that were coming at me every day. Sometimes you just have to deal with the task at hand and put the feelings and emotions aside for awhile.
I would just take certain things and mentally put them in a box. And that is what I have been doing for a long time. But lately I have been collecting a lot of those boxes. They are getting a little heavy. So I guess that means I need to deal with some of them, before they deal with me.
I feel better just admitting that to myself. It is OK to have these feelings. It is OK to take some time for yourself. It is OK to stop pretending to be the energizer bunny.
Actually, I feel better already. Have a great rain-free weekend. I hope to get some more photos of the fall leaves before they all disappear.