I think I'm coming out of my fog. The weeks leading up to Christmas were terrible. As you may recall, that's about the time Mom entered Palliative Care last year. It really affected me in a way I was not expecting. To be honest, I was in a pretty bad state for awhile. And of course I didn't really tell anyone how bad it was. (Ironically a trait I picked up from my mother)
However, I woke up a couple of days ago and just felt better. The pressure of the holidays and all that forced cheer was gone. After spending a couple of days with auntie, I came back to my house and started looking around. Even though I've been here for months, it still just feels like a house, not my home. So I put on my thinking cap and then I tore this place apart. I've moved furniture from room to room and changed things all about.
It's still in chaos, but now I have a plan! I ordered a new dining room set and my double living room will "soon" be a living room/dining room combo. It was supposed to be delivered today but apparently I wasn't in the order today but they did promise it for Wednesday. But since I had already emptied out that room I felt extra ambitious today. I picked a paint color, bought a sample can to test and started this......
The only thing worse than stripping wallpaper is this mint green paint underneath it. Yuck! But let me tell you, this was some quality wallpaper because it is not coming off without a fight. Holy cow it is on there good. It was oddly therapeutic however. It felt good to start making a home of my own
Doesn't seem like much progress but it was not easy. I thought I'd show you the mess before what eventually will be a nice dining area. I know, it's hard to imagine from this picture :).
Time to take a break and reward myself with a little treat.
I hope everyone had a lovely holiday and my apologies for not blog hopping much lately.
Very soon I think you will feel like it is HOME and all the comfort that word means very soon. Good job!
ReplyDeleteKim you went from full care of your mom to a very large decision of buying your own house. I know that you had to move through the fog and it will come back now and then but it gets easier to get through. I had a sick mom at home and then one day unexpectedly she died.I know just how you feel. I am so happy for you that you are making your house your own which will be so lovely and comforting to be in.
ReplyDeleteCathy
I'm glad that you're fog is lifting. Everyone goes through such fog at one time or another.
ReplyDeleteI've removed lots of wall paper and sometime you get some real stubborn one especially when applied over flat paint. It will soon you'll feel like it's your house. I'm looking forward to seeing your new dining room set.
Hugs,
JB
I'm sorry you went through a tough time. Totally understandable after all you've been through. Your home will be beautiful because it will have your heart and new determination to move forward. I wish you the best New Year ever...you deserve it!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that you feel on the road to recovery. There is just something nice about making your house your home. I think starting tearing down wall paper is a good choice.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing. Sometimes being strong is for the birds.
Glad you are feeling better. When my Mom died I repainted the entire house. It was good therapy for me. The physical work and the drastic change in colors made me start to look at moving on with my life. Wishing you a wonderful and Happy New Year in your "home"!!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you girlfriend!!! I already know how strong you are (even when you don't feel it) and now you will feel such a sense of accomplishment knowing that you not only pushed through -- but are making your house into a home in the process!!! That's an accomplishment!! I will remain one of your biggest cheerleaders and it's time for you!! Give me a K give me an I give me an M!!!! Ha!! Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteKim ~
ReplyDeleteSending lots of hugs and good vibes. Your life has totally changed in a year and change is not easy. Neither is stripping wallpaper :) Before I moved in my house I decided to strip what I though was one layer of paper that turned out to be three. It took me a month of evenings and weekends to get the damn stuff off but so happy I did. You will be, too, and soon your house will be your home.
Happy New Year!
Lauren
So glad the fog lifted. How great to work on making your house a home!!
ReplyDeleteGlad you are feeling better. Your new room will be really nice. I would rather remove drywall than wallpaper and its glue!
ReplyDeleteHappy the fog lifted my friend. You will make the house feel like home, give it time.Hugs Francine.
ReplyDeleteGlad you found your way back. It's tough, I know. Looks like a great project for you to help get the house where you want it...your home. Have a Blessed New Year!
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my thoughts, Kim. This has to have been a difficult time for you. You will work your magic on that house and it will be home for you! xo Nellie
ReplyDeleteHi Kim....I know your new dining room is going to look great. :)
ReplyDeleteMy mom is still hanging in there. Though she is having a hard time. Yesterday was 13 years since her mom passed away. And tomorrow is her fathers birthday. She will be ok though. I visited her yesterday and will tomorrow too.
Can't wait to see your room's new look :) Take care, Janet W
I suspect the down time is all part of the healing process and was your body and minds way of giving you time out. I have never really enjoyed Christmas, it goes back to my childhood and something that takes the edge off the cheery festivities, if I could hibernate through it, I SO would!
ReplyDeleteReally pleased you've set your mind to making a home from the surrounding brickwork and am sure it will be therapeutic. Your taking ownership of your home and perhaps your peace of mind too.
Good for you!
: ) Lyn