I'm not sure where to start with this post so excuse me if I ramble a bit. There is a mix of good news and some not so good. Might as well start with the background and then hit you with the good. On December 18 I met with the doctor who quietly advised me that Mom had about 2 weeks to live. Throughout the holidays we had good days and some very bad days, all along as I quietly and sadly counted down the days in my head.
Following a pretty bad New Years Eve, Mom seemed to rally a bit. She stabilized which was a blessing but also what I assumed was what people often term "the brightening" before the end. However the rally continued for the past few days. She isn't getting better, but she isn't getting worse.
Yesterday I was advised that since Mom had several consecutive good days, she is no longer considered palliative and is now deemed "medically stable". Which is great news - truly. But it also means something else.....it also means that now I will be charged for her care AND she is now in what I call "the system".
All the hard work that Auntie and I have done over the past few years was to keep Mom at home as long as possible and be able to select the Long Term Care facility of our choice for when that time came. As long as she was at home, we had that ability. This is no longer the case. As she is hospitalized and "medically stable" we now have lost all control over the future. She is unable to be cared for at home now. She will remain in the hospital until a bed in a facility opens up. This could take months. But the worst part is that she will be forced to take the bed in whatever facility, wherever, once it's her turn. That means it could be anywhere from a 20 minute drive to an hour and a half drive away. There is no guarantee that she will be placed in our town.
Having said all that rant, I have extremely grateful for Moms strength and the fact that she continues to fight. That's what is happening around here. I have to of back to work tomorrow. At least things have settled down a bit.