Tuesday, January 28, 2014

It's a tough week for a control freak


If you've been following along here for awhile you know that I'm a bit of a control freak.  OK, it's more than a bit.  I don't like surprises.  I like to know what's around the corner.  I plan and over-analyze most things.  I'd rather be prepared for the worst and then be relieved when it doesn't happen.  For me it's better than thinking everything is coming up roses and then getting smacked in the face by a thorny branch. 

So, this was NOT my week.  Issues with Mom's eventual placement are out of control.  I have to just wait it out and pray for the best.  Because many of the options before us are ugly.  I had a meeting today at the hospital.  I talked, I argued, I pleaded, I stated my case and I cried.  Ultimately it doesn't matter.  Things will just happen and I need to try and come to terms with that.


Not easy for me!  But based on today's mental state, it's important that I learn - and quickly.  

So tonight I tried to settle down and hook on my pillow.  I've replaced the bright orange with a darker shade.  The difference is subtle but works much better.  I think it's hard to see in the picture so you will have to take my word for it. 


I think this may be the longest pillow project in history.  Sighhhhh!  I "really" need to finish this and move on. 


19 comments:

  1. Sending hugs, Kim, and hoping for the best possible placement for your mom!

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  2. Having gone through similar placement issues with my grandmother and my mother-in-law, I understand your situation. Blessings!

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  3. Hopefully all will work out for the best.

    I love the colors in your rug and your hooking is so neat and even.
    Thanks for sharing

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  4. So sorry you don't have any control over mom's eventual relocation. Sometimes life just isn't fair.
    Your pillow is lookin' good.
    Hugs :)
    Lauren

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  5. We went through that with my dad and he was place in a home far from home and my mom could not go see him everyday and it was difficult for both of them but he adjusted and love the staff who looked after him. They had guys with big muscles to lift him and he like that. When a place came available nearer home dad was upset because he had to get used to a new place and he missed his care givers but mom could go see him every day. It's like that everywhere, you have to take the place they offer or you lose your place on the list and they put you back at the bottom.

    You just started that rug. It looks beautiful even though I only have a sneak peek.

    By the way, I don't like surprises either and I like to know what's around the corner.
    Big hugs Kim and stay warm and safe.
    JB



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  6. Really sucks not having any control where your Mom's concerned Kim.....love the darker orange on your mat, looking great, Take Care, Francine.

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  7. Don't forget to breathe...I might've already said that, but worth reminding...xoxox

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  8. Those colors are perfect. Hoping for the best concerning your mom.

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  9. That you can even pick up a hook is amazing to me. I never can do any thing creative when life is in flux. I am so sorry with the hard things going on with your Mom. I didn't know. I will sure be praying about them.
    I hope your Wednesday is better.

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  10. oh Kim I am so sorry you are not the one in control of your mothers choices. It is charming how they take them away happens here too.
    keeping you and your mother in my prayers. so glad you have millie and your hooking you haven't mentioned Auntie so I hope she is doing well.
    Cathy

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  11. Sometimes life can be so frustrating!

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  12. Hi, sorry I keep missing your calls. I am with mother night and day it seems. She hardly ever sleeps :( Please keep up in your thoughts and prayers and we do you and your mom. :)
    What cute pic of Millie. Love your pillow. The colors are great.
    Take care, Janet W

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  13. Gosh! I can't believe I can't spell. So changing "up" to "us". :) And "and we" to "as I." Now that you and anyone else who reads this are totally confused,,I will go now :) (((HUGS)))

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  14. Ugh... I usually read but came back today to comment. I think I know how you feel as it is not something where you just pick what you want - some don't understand that. I hope something gives and perhaps it will somehow work out closer to the way you would like after all. In the meantime, breathe and hook!!? :)

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  15. It's hard enough to try and care for aging parents, but to not have a say in how it's done has to be over the top stressful. I'm so sorry and I do hope a miracle will happen and it comes out better than you have been told. Hugs to you and I think it's great to have a hobby to help with the stress. Hang in there Kim

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  16. so sorry things are the way they are.
    love your rug, hugs!

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  17. Sorry Kim. It stinks that you can't have any say where your Mom spends her days and nights. Just stinks. I am thinking about you and sending little power prayers.. :)

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  18. Hi Kim,sorry your going thru this. Hang in there, hugs cheri

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  19. Yum! Little bailys for me, little for brownies... Glad you got out for some laughing! Love the darker shade in your rug! Some rugs seem to take forever dont they!? Enjoy your weekend Kim!

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