Thursday, November 18, 2010
I try not to dwell on things. I have made a conscious decision to put my family first. And at times I feel like I am required to make excuses for my choices - even to my friends. My decision to care for my family is one I will not apologize for or justify. I could make it go away with one phone call, but that is not me.
I cannot be the same person everyday. I do not always have enough left to be happy, perky, funny, helpful or even compassionate everyday. For those who choose to judge me on that merit - too bad.
None of my friends or co-workers know the whole story of each day. There are very few who I choose to share little bits with. I figure that unless you come here and live it for awhile - do not judge me.
I find it odd that if you are caring for a sick or disabled child it is more readily accepted but it you choose to do it for a senior citizen it's questioned or judged.
Some days this makes me bitter. This will pass, I know. Today I just felt the need to vent and get this off my chest. I apologize for the depressing post. Maybe I should have stayed off the computer tonight. But I think I feel better just putting it out there. I will be better tomorrow.